Anger Management

How do you get your grip on rage when all you want to do is beat the crap
out of someone just to spend your anger?



I got really angry today.

I've been seeing a growing trend of neglect and apathy these days on the
ship.



Just after the safety drills ,I found the SCBA (short for Self Contained
Breathing Apparatus) kept the wrong way, despite telling people that it will
get damaged in that position.

What's more , I even found a safety lantern missing from the SCBA
harness.Some Bloody Motherf*ckin Idiot had taken it and never bothered to
return it back.One of the buttons on the SCBA was damaged and the forward
fire hose was leaking...In short -Total Disaster.



And who's gonna be held responsible?

Me.(And the Master of course)

Why?

Because I'm in charge of their maintenance.

Arrghh!

I tried to find out who had taken the missing safety lantern and I was met
with total indifference,lack of co-operation,apathy and evasiveness.



'No, I've never seen it'

'What? You were the last one using it!'

'Yeah, but it was like that when I got there...Yeah, it was like that when I
got there'



There was a tide of impotent rage rising in my blood, and it made me wanna
go...

Arrghh!

WTF@$#^%&*@()&)@!WhatiswrongwithyouyoustupidmotherF@#$@$!^*)%^



Ok this is my secret for being thin ( despite eating like a horse)



I exercise when I get angry.



Many have admired the fact that they have never seen me getting angry.

But I do get angry.



And then I release it with exercise.



At home , I release it on my punching bag.

So far I've damaged three punching bags as a result.This time Dad has
promised a custom made heavy duty punching bag that can withstand my
onslaught.

I doubt it.

I'm pretty relentless.



But what about it when I'm on ships ?

Well,I had a missing lantern, a leaking hose, a damaged button -and all
these things were important enough to get the ship detained in any of the
ports.

This was not small stuff that I could just pooh-pooh it away.



My anger was rising like mercury on a hot summer day,and then Zen happened.I
had a mini 'Satori', a moment of clarity , of revelation.



I realised that people are assholes and they would remain to be so.

My anger was impotent because it led me nowhere closer to the solution.I
would now have to waste precious hours tracking a stupid safety lantern and
these assholes would not make it any easier in finding it.But it had to be
done.In the scheme of all things important , this was on the top ten list.So
it had to be done.With or without their help.



Well, fuck them.

So I tried to calm myself down , trying to explain to myself how my anger
was unproductive and how these people did not even deserve my anger, but it
didn't work.



My anger was frtothing over and I decided to start looking for the
lantern.An hour's worth of searching yielded no results, but worse, my anger
had not simmered down and I didn't like the fact that I'd give into an
outburst if this rage continued.



So I went to the gym, locked the dood, and started loading the barbell until
it was very heavy.(60 kg)

Started with a few Clean and Jerks and then did a few military presses.Now
with the physical exertion my anger was subsiding.

Did a few other lifts including my favorite- The Deadlift using all the
plates on the barbell(nearly 90kg)

That left me tired and spent but feeling very peaceful and no longer angry.



p.s. Yesterday I told you about the sinking Yacht.It's name was Georgia.

It came on the 6 o'clock news today.All of them are ok.








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