Goodbye, Goodnight Redux

"I have a simple calculation on how long we will be friends.Count the stars in the sky and sand grains on the shore and multiply the sum by my heart beats"

I beg to differ .

Call me a pessimist ... but then there is not much of a difference between a realist and a pessimist.

You and I were never meant to be forever.

But I wish we could be.

What was it that came between us , that so sudenly  solidified as stone walls that  became too high and slippery to be scaled?

I realize that our destinies are entwined but never joined.

We are so close, yet so far...

Our lives will soon lead us in different paths.

Soon you and I will drift apart, too immersed in our own lives ,meeting new people , facing new challenges , new problems , new dilemmas .

It takes a lifetime and maybe more to solve these ,and soon these problems will  define us, even as they tend to occasionally defy and surprise us.

Too busy for anything else , and completely absorbed by our rapidly changing present, we will have no choice but to discard our pasts and their burdens , and thus disconnect our bonds.

But we will continue to watch each other with a sense of fascination, for we already know  our potential...but chose not to do anything about it.      

This isn't the first time I've seen it happen.

Too many unnamed relations have simply deliquesced with time.

Maybe it was a mistake that we too left our relationship in an unnamed limbo.

Mistakes.

Costly mistakes.

It happens to the best of us .

Change.It is inevitable.

Change is the natural order of life.Embrace it , for only change is permanent.

What we had was beautiful while it lasted .It changed me forever.

So , when I bid adieu , I promise you , I will do it tearfully yet joyfully .

And my heart will sing for you it's favourite song, full of  haunting melodies,for it knows  all too well the familiar pangs of not having you around.

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And I will miss you.

Goodbye and Goodnight